Losing Weight Is Weird... Part 1

 Losing weight is weird. Now, don't get me wrong. It's awesome, but it's weird! My reactions and emotions to it are weird, and other peoples reactions can be strange too. First, we'll get me out of the way (Me, me, me. I sound like Marcia Brady).

I'm going through this crazy mixed bag of emotions right now. Before I started on this journey, I had always imagined that I would be in a constant state of delight and vigilance. There would be no room for anything else. Uuummm...no. It's like crazy town of emotions up in here.

There's sadness. Sadness that I let my health decline for so long.

There's excitement. Excitement that comes from stepping on my ol' frenemy, The Scale, and seeing that my hard work for the week paid off, even if it's just half a pound.

There's fear. Fear of giving up. Fear of gaining back a pound, and oddly enough a bit of fear of my different body.

There's newly discovered confidence. Confidence that yes, I can do this. I can go hiking. I can run for short distances. I can treat myself to a piece or two of chocolate.

There's happiness. Happiness that I can finally fit into that pair of pants that I've been hanging onto for-ever (the only downside is that I no longer like them, but still...).

There's anger. Anger at myself for not starting sooner.

There's astonishment. Astonishment that something as simple as eating better/a little bit less and moving more actually works. Those dang healthcare people actually know what they're talking about!

There's frustration. Frustration when all week I eat really well, workout really hard, and then step onto Monsieur Scale, see that I haven't dropped a single ounce, and in fact have GAINED A POUND.

On and on it goes, and it's just weird. Up and down. Up and down.

Happy/Scared/Motivated/Couch is My Best Friend/Soda is the Devil/Why, yes! I will have whipped cream and chocolate sprinkles on that latte!

Emotional roller coaster much? Yeesh. See what I mean? It's so strange...


Next up. Other people's reactions to someone they know losing weight. Stay tuned!